sick

In case you don't facebook... or call me.

We have been sick. Wilson started to get sick on Saturday just before it was time to go show off our Dinosaur to the neighbors. We went trick or treating the night before at our church, which is where I think he caught the virus. Most likely he had the h1n1 flu virus but no one here is testing. Doctors are only treating symptomatic individuals as though they have the new virus.

Unfortunately, I also got sick on Monday. I have not had a fever (according to our thermometer) but have had all other flu like symptoms. On Monday I seemed to get worse throughout the day. I had chills, a headache, was coughing, and my body ached.

Fortunately Wilson and I have both been given Tamiflu. I feel comfortable giving him the medicine, but am at constant battle with myself as to whether or not I should continue taking it.

I have taken the medicine. So far I have taken it 3 times and have 12 more doses. My OB feels that I should take it as it is a greater risk if I have complications from the flu. I have spoken to countless nurses and when I say that my OB suggested I take it, I should stress that the doctor called me personally. Not the doctor's nurse.

The. Doctor.

So... I am trusting the doctor but I almost fall apart every time I take the medicine. EVERY. FREAKIN. TIME.

Every time I debate if I should continue.

• I am pregnant of course my body aches.
• I have worried myself into being sick (maybe not but the mind is powerful).
• It is just a cold.
• I woke up in a shirt full of sweat 5 nights before Wilson got a fever. So I obviously had this first.
• I felt fine for a few days after I had the night sweats and chills. So Wilson had this first and I just had night sweats.
• My symptoms on Monday increased over the day and the onset of my cough was sudden. So I did have the flu and did get it from Wilson.
• Tamiflu is not a cure all.
• If this is a cold then I could be potentially damaging my baby for NOTHING.
• I never spiked a fever.
• Maybe I did have a fever and my thermometer is not accurate, as I had all the classic fever signs.
• Some people have tested positive for h1n1 without ever having fevers.
• If I was not pregnant I would not take the medicine.
• I am pregnant so I need to take the medicine.
• Tamiflu is a class C drug!
• The baby is mostly developed and studies on animals have only had negative effects on bone development when given high doses much earlier in pregnancy.
• What if taking the medicine when I did is what made my symptoms decrease and actually helped us?

Okay. So you get what is going on in my mind EVERY second of the day! Luckily for me I am 33 weeks pregnant. My baby is mostly developed. As difficult as this has been for me to deal with I realize it could always be worse. I am doing okay. My cough and symptoms are improving and Wilson has been fever free. We are healthy and will all be fine. We. Will. All. Be. Fine.
P.S. How in the hell do people drink and do other drugs doing pregnancy? How in the hell?